Do you have a short in your fuse?

Is there a short in your fuse?
by Katie Souza
(Taken from Katie’s Journal written in Prison April / May 2001)

“Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.  But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.”  Psalm 1:1-2 (KJV)

Today I told Reverend Hodge that he scared me when we talked about the theology class.  He said he thought he did, and he was sorry. So, we made an agreement to talk again about the class. Praise God, all in His time!  We got to attend two churches today!!

I talked to mom and dad, they aren’t coming again. (I need to pray for mom’s complete healing!)

We had Spanish Bible study at 7:00 pm. I feel the Lord on a new level. The Lord our God is the only true God! Got struck with a urinary tract infection (UTI) while praying for Josie. I need to fight through this!

I read Nehemiah, walked, had prayer meeting, shopped – ordered shoes. Received a letter from Teresa, still have UTI, and I read the Bible all night. Josie got victory last night at 11:00 pm when she was in prayer.  I worked alone, buffed the floors, went to prayer meeting and choir practice, called mom and dad, read Matthew, and still have the UTI.

No church today, I walked 2 miles, I read more of Matthew and I buffed alone.

Today, there was hardly anybody in church. I went to Chinese Bible study then went to Prison Fellowship Ministry meeting at 7:00 pm for Kairos.

I PREACHED! Had prayer meeting at 12:30 pm, worked (still with no partner) and buffed the floors.

I’ve been inside for 93 days. I met with Reverend Hodge, read my Bible, suffered with UTI until late.

I worked today with no partner, buffed floors, and went to the Spanish service and Communion service. Then I walked and called mom. This is my scripture for today, “You are the light of the world.  A city set on a hill cannot be hid. Nor do men light a lamp and put it under a bushel, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house.”  Matthew 5:14 (ESV)

The church service at 2:00 pm was a larger turn out. Went to service with Ray and Esther.  Prayed for my mom. God gave me this verse today for mom, “Let your light so shine before all men, that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.”  Matthew 5:16 (ESV)

There were attacks on the floor crew today. Anna is our new boss.

Ann Shelby passed away. We had two church services today. We sang Grace and Mercy at both, and I dedicated that song to Ann because she used to sing it at services. This is my scripture for today: “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?”  Matthew 6:25 (ESV)

I listened to tapes all night at the chapel. “Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  Are you not of more value than they?”  Matthew 6:26 (ESV)

Today at work, the buffer had a short in it. I thought how it was like me (sometimes I have a short)! I was getting frustrated and mad at the machine for not working, then I remembered to pray for it in “Jesus’ name” and it started right up! This was a great lesson from God!

Looking back at my journal makes me smile. I was so intense and so fragile at the same time, and was doing my best to follow hard after the Lord in all the small events of each day. The Lord was teaching me valuable lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. I was in a training ground!

How do you approach each day?

Are you taking each event as it comes and looking for God’s hand in it? If not, how can you adjust the way you see the everyday things?

Pray through the above scriptures from Matthew with me and believe them for yourself! God loves you!

Share with us below on how God can use the times your fuse shorts, and turn it into a training opportunity.

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  • Linda Jones

    I started to look at each event as tho’ it was meant to happen. It helped me not to fuss about things so much.

  • Cindy D May

    I have plenty to work through to get my soul clean and brilliant white. A short fuse hasn’t been one of my biggest sruggles, but I had to laugh when I saw the title, and was reminded of David Hogan and his frequent comments about his lack of a fuse. He says why waste money on a fuse?! It amazes me that God works with us at all. That He will work with us and our imperfections. I’m not saying I want to keep any imperfections!

    I knew of the soul-body correlation, but I didn’t know that I could work on healing my soul, through Jesus. I’d not heard of you, and I didn’t realize the HUGE difference it makes to have your soul and not just your body healed and clean.

    I’d been supernaturally healed in 2016 from a tormenting/hellish disease that I’d had for 9 years. It was when my mind was renewed, and I “discovered” the ideas of God putting disease on us was a sick and twisted stronghold, and that His will (not a mystery, but the opposite) is for us to know, (and we’re foolish if we don’t. Eph 5:17) for me and everyone was to heal us and heal us immediately. (I came into the world of sickness believing God put sickness on us, and there was no way to know his will, if I’d ever be healed, etc.) When those strongholds came crumbling down, supernatural healing replaced it, Then I “lost” that healing (Another show-stopper I had no idea was even possible) 3 months later. Not exactly sure why, but I have a pretty good guess (now, 3 years later). God led me to you through a dream and a word of knowledge–2.5 years ago. Otherwise I don’t know if I’d have heard of you yet.

    I know healing is mine again. And I think I’m on the brink of seeing it manifest. I think Courts of Heaven in combination with what you’ve taught so far is changing everything One of the first articles I read was “Nothing in common”. I read it, and I was IN. Before I march out into full-time ministry, I’m going to run fast and furious to get to know this Jesus who I thought I had known all along, and work with Him to make my soul whiter than chlorox. No stains, No wrinkles, No wreckage. NOTHING in common. What happened over the past 12 years, can never happen again. It hit me recently, that I had lived life as if it was my own to decide what to do with it. I was living what I thought a Christian life looked like, and I’m so thankful for all you’ve done to share your life with us, so that we can learn how to take healing, truth, the gospel to those who need it, and keep ourselves from breaking down and not understanding why. Such an incredible revelation.